Honestly, no matter how much I had been there for my friends, I never once felt important to any one of them.
But ironically, the person whom I've never been there for, treats me like I'm someone special. *heart breaks

Gosh, after being upset for so many bloody times, I promise I'm never gona be too trusting again to anyone. Few days back I was trying so hard to keep my mental state. I thought I had it under perfect control last year. Boooo~ Long way to go graceeee!

Gona build up my walls, make sure I'm guarded, shut my heart and seal my feelings. I'll still talk & laugh, but its different now.

Alrights, will find a time to escape for awhile to snap some sceneries. Somewhere.. Wherever the bus takes me, Idk. Looking at clouds soothes me. CAN'T WAIT! :D

Here's chi chi hogging up my lappy.


Chi chi sitting like a Ah Beng.


Chi chi giving you a high-five.


I'll recover by my next post, so I promise no emotional shit alrights. ^o^
Later!

Again, I've been feeling kinda down for certain reasons. Plus, haven't met up with flo and ken for donkey years I'm really missing out in their lives.

I've also been thinking about this.
I know I may seem like two totally different person inside and outside of school, but I'm sorry I can't help it. I wish too, that I could be as funny and confident of myself as I am outside, I wish that I could look the same without my hair extensions. (I absolutely LOVE my short hair too) But honestly, I couldn't have built that sort of esteem in school. I'm more outgoing outside, y'know.

Truth is, there's so much that I wish to tell my school friends about me but there's probably tons of stuffs that I tend to keep as a secret. But its okay even if there's a whole part of me that they don't know, because that's not what made us friends. We were friends because we got along well. If there was more quality time together, prob after O'levels, I'm sure I'll be able to talk more.
I just didn't wana come across as someone who is distancing myself on purpose, or someone who has outrageously different personalities both inside and outside of school. I'd feel madly insane if anyone were to hate me for that.

I can only say that without them, school is unbearable and I've come to love them a lot. They make my last year in school enjoyable, something that I'd never thought I could experience. I cherish them so much, they probably never knew about it because I'm not the kind that show it obviously.

Thanks guys ♥, if you ever read this. I couldn't have expressed myself any better than in my own blog.

Shopped at a flea market @ Scape today. Woooo~ ^o^
The flea market @ Scape is by far the best I've been to! Best of all, I went with flo♥ Haven't gone out with her in ages.

School has been taking up so much time, and I stay back almost everyday till evening. Also, I was sick for a few days this week and it's amazing that I managed to attend school & tolerate the headache during lessons.

Chi chi is licking my hand now as I'm typing, so cute ^^
So anyway, I just realised that my pictures are in the other laptop which just so happen to crash. Hmm lucky. ;/



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