y'know,
I've dared to do many stuffs before. I wana be like that again. I'm gona take back all my self-esteem that I've stupidly lost to everyone else before.

watch me watch me watch me watch me.

Also,
why do I open up easier to pure strangers than to unfamiliar friends?

I think I talk better with strangers because its the first time we meet, so there isn't any pre-judgemental impression towards each other.

Other factors are involved but I shan't elaborate.

omgosh this post reveals so much.
oh well.


KENNETH I MISS YOU. SCREW YOU IF YOU'RE READING THIS.
floria misses you too!

Oh gosh this week is finally over.
So much has happened recently.
Well, I just wana say.

I experienced this screwed up shit 2 years ago because of Tom(& friends). No one in school helped me. Rather, I was not open to people back then.

This year, something ridiculous happened, and now Tom is going through whatever screwed up shit I had went through previously.

LOL. What kind of coincidental/retribution shit is this? XD
Anyhow, Tom has been my good friend for the past one year, so I helped him nevertheless.

PLUS, my girlfriend was involved, so I couldn't ditch her in that situation.
I only wish I had received help back then too. y'know.. just sayin.

and duh, Tom is obviously a fake name.
everything's kinda settled down now, yay! No more school-drama-rama.


They say that people who bite on straws are stubborn people.
I suck on them.

ps, notice something similar. XD

Yes! Attended photography workshop, am satisfied.
heheheh, lemme brag on my blog once in awhile :D
oh at least I don't brag in real life.

Higher ISO value gives you brighter, richer atmosphere. Does it? XD



perfect example of how my hair sways ONLY IN SCHOOL. I was at vivocity's rooftop with wind blowing through my hair and it never gets messy.



Anyway, I wana watch My Rainy Days.
I LOVE HOW I FEEL THE ADRENALINE RUSH WHEN I WATCH JAP MOVIES.
I love testing how much I can understand without reading the english subtitles.





and now when everyone's going crazy over K-pop/drama, I remain faithful to my childhood love; Jap culture.

I admit I loved BOF though XD
I hope it'll make me go crazy just like how Sky Of Love did, woooooo!
Okay I'll need to force myself to study this weekend.

OMG, WHY DOES MY HAIR ONLY FALL IN PLACE SO NICELY WHEN I'M OUT, NOT IN SCHOOL.

Every weekday mornings, my hair has cowlicks, sways uncontrollably and curls at the ends. I don't see the point of straightening my hair damit. I'm destined to look horrible in school.

@ Clarke Quay with quite an amazing view. Am happy.




Okay, I don't know if its hormone fluctuations or not.
I've been keeping this for over a year now.
I hate emotional attachments.
People walk in and out of me, and I feel terrible. I feel abused.

fluttering heart, aching desire.
I wana get closer, but I know I should really stop.

I wanted to graduate with nothing,
but I don't think its possible now.
I've let my guard down too often, and I've allowed people to enter into my world.

They trample on it and made it a mess, and I start piecing it together all over again.

I don't wana have infatuations anymore, with either guys or girls.

You can go ahead and be dumb, thinking that I'm lesbian.
You either get my language or you don't.

I find myself using coloured beads a lot.

My polaroid camera spoiled, damit! It was bought from a blogshop, there's no warranty whatsoever. Costs quite a lot, it breaks my heart :(

I'm gona attend some photography workshop later, can't wait!
Wonder if I can be a part-time photographer as my side income or something. I've got a reaaaally long way to go though.

Sometimes, what I think is pretty in my eyes is weird to my friends. Then, I'ld cheer myself up by thinking that they're the ones who don't know how to appreciate it. heh XD

Went out with geok theng and ruey shien on a freakin' triple date w/ their boyfriends on Good Friday. Will probably elaborate more when I get my hands on those pictures.

p.s, no, its not what ya' thinking of. I was rather, quite heart broken that day.

Later!